Swords · Air
Nine of Swordsfor Pisces · Self and Identity
"Anxiety isn't the question. What you do next is."
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One seated on her couch in lamentation, with the swords over her. She is as one who knows no sorrow which is like unto hers. It is a card of utter desolation. Swords represents thoughts and nine represents isolation. Together this card represents the doubts and fears that come with being alive and alone in the world. Obsessing over perceived flaws (or real mistakes) is not how you enact change in your life.
You are beset with worries and anxieties-- did you make the right choices, did you end a relationship with the love of your life, did you say the right thing to your boss, etc. These anxious thoughts are keeping you up at night and affecting your health. Reliving a situation over and over can give it more power over you. It feeds your anxiety. Acceptance of who you are (and what you did) are key
You are so overwhelmed with your anxieties it's hard to move through the world with any lightness. Perhaps a period of intense anxiety or melancholia. Fueled by shame, you feel something about the way you are is unlikeable. This is deeply untrue. Have faith that things will change and this intense feeling will pass. Ground yourself by spending time outside and be protective of yourself and your inner child. Seek support from friends, family or professionals as you do not have to bear these feelings by yourself.
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Nine of Swords for Pisces in Self and Identity
The Dreamer
Swords are the air suit, so the Nine of Swords sits in Libra. Libra and Pisces are quincunx, two signs with nothing in common: no shared element, mode, or polarity. This card will not slot neatly into how Pisces already operates. What it wants is this: write the sentence down and stop rewriting it. It has to be done deliberately or it will not happen. Upright, it is nearly finished, and the last stretch of it is mostly solitary.
When reading about yourself through a Pisces lens, the Nine of Swords says that you feel like yourself is something you discover by watching how others react to you, your own thoughts are hard to locate because you're always sensing the room first, and clarity about who you are feels dangerous or impossible. This has either kept you fluid enough to move through difficult situations, or left you so uncertain that you remake yourself each time someone new arrives. You have been so focused on who you think you should be that you haven't checked in with who you actually are. The Pisces blind spot in it is the moment they have to stop being useful and admit they're drowning.
In practice that can look like a loop that finally breaks, or seeing your own pattern in writing. Whatever form it takes, it is close to done and mostly solitary.
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