Swords · Air
Nine of Swordsfor Scorpio · Self and Identity
"Anxiety isn't the question. What you do next is."
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One seated on her couch in lamentation, with the swords over her. She is as one who knows no sorrow which is like unto hers. It is a card of utter desolation. Swords represents thoughts and nine represents isolation. Together this card represents the doubts and fears that come with being alive and alone in the world. Obsessing over perceived flaws (or real mistakes) is not how you enact change in your life.
You are beset with worries and anxieties-- did you make the right choices, did you end a relationship with the love of your life, did you say the right thing to your boss, etc. These anxious thoughts are keeping you up at night and affecting your health. Reliving a situation over and over can give it more power over you. It feeds your anxiety. Acceptance of who you are (and what you did) are key
You are so overwhelmed with your anxieties it's hard to move through the world with any lightness. Perhaps a period of intense anxiety or melancholia. Fueled by shame, you feel something about the way you are is unlikeable. This is deeply untrue. Have faith that things will change and this intense feeling will pass. Ground yourself by spending time outside and be protective of yourself and your inner child. Seek support from friends, family or professionals as you do not have to bear these feelings by yourself.
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Nine of Swords for Scorpio in Self and Identity
The Transformer
Swords are the air suit, so the Nine of Swords sits in Libra. Libra sits directly beside Scorpio, the one relationship a sign cannot see clearly because it is too close to get any distance on. What it asks for is this: write the sentence down and stop rewriting it. The difficulty is noticing it is being asked at all. Upright, it is nearly finished, and the last stretch of it is mostly solitary.
When reading about yourself through a Scorpio lens, the Nine of Swords says that you feel like your own motives are worth interrogating endlessly, a mystery even to you (or especially to you), and something you will judge harshly before anyone else gets the chance. This has either led to you becoming very honest about what you actually want, or to you believing you do not deserve it. You have been so focused on who you think you should be that you haven't checked in with who you actually are. The Scorpio blind spot in it is the feeling of being fooled, or of being seen as naive, or of depending on someone who will leave.
In practice that can look like a loop that finally breaks, or seeing your own pattern in writing. Whatever form it takes, it is close to done and mostly solitary.
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