Swords · Air
Nine of Swordsfor Cancer · Self and Identity
"Anxiety isn't the question. What you do next is."
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One seated on her couch in lamentation, with the swords over her. She is as one who knows no sorrow which is like unto hers. It is a card of utter desolation. Swords represents thoughts and nine represents isolation. Together this card represents the doubts and fears that come with being alive and alone in the world. Obsessing over perceived flaws (or real mistakes) is not how you enact change in your life.
You are beset with worries and anxieties-- did you make the right choices, did you end a relationship with the love of your life, did you say the right thing to your boss, etc. These anxious thoughts are keeping you up at night and affecting your health. Reliving a situation over and over can give it more power over you. It feeds your anxiety. Acceptance of who you are (and what you did) are key
You are so overwhelmed with your anxieties it's hard to move through the world with any lightness. Perhaps a period of intense anxiety or melancholia. Fueled by shame, you feel something about the way you are is unlikeable. This is deeply untrue. Have faith that things will change and this intense feeling will pass. Ground yourself by spending time outside and be protective of yourself and your inner child. Seek support from friends, family or professionals as you do not have to bear these feelings by yourself.
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Nine of Swords for Cancer in Self and Identity
The Nurturer
Swords are the air suit, so the Nine of Swords sits in Libra. Libra squares Cancer, so the card asks for the move Cancer is least fluent in: write the sentence down and stop rewriting it. The friction is the content, not an obstacle to it. Upright, it is nearly finished, and the last stretch of it is mostly solitary.
When reading about yourself through a Cancer lens, the Nine of Swords says that you feel like you are only acceptable when you are useful, your body is something that wants too much (or needs too much), and your own feelings are something to handle in private. This has either made you excellent at ignoring your own pain until it becomes a crisis, or taught you that being gentle with yourself is not selfish. You have been so focused on who you think you should be that you haven't checked in with who you actually are. The Cancer blind spot in it is being seen as a burden, or as someone whose needs are too much.
In practice that can look like a loop that finally breaks, or seeing your own pattern in writing. Whatever form it takes, it is close to done and mostly solitary.
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